I was out with my uncle, we had a few drinks and went back to my grandads house to have a drink. My grandad sat on the opposite chair while I was sitting with my uncle on the other one, I started to get tired, my uncle went to his bed so I decided to go to sleep on the couch I was sitting on while my grandad was awake on the other one. I strangely woke up with a bad dream, I lifted my head to look down on my grandad kneeling on the floor with his head over my chest, with my left boob out of my underwear and top,sucking on my nipple and his right hand under my trousers touching my pelvic bone. I said" what the f***are you doing man, get off me" he carried on, I pushed him off and he stood up and sat on the couch laughing at me, I froze with fear I didn't know what to do I curled up into a ball on the couch and silently cried until 10 minutes later I plucked the courage up to get off the couch and run in to wake my uncle up. It took a while to wake him up but when I did I was clutched on to my uncle screaming "help me, get me out if here". He couldn't understand what had happened.. He told me to calm down and tell him, I said to him " he's sexually abused me" as my uncle grabbed me to get me out of the house my grandad walked threw and tried to hit me, my uncle stood in front of me and said "what have you done to her" his reply was "get that C** out of here, she is a B****", so we got out, we told my mum who I lived with. I never contacted the police because he wouldn't get the jail for long & if he did and got out he would track me down and kill me. He is a dangerous man and I've had to deal with this on my own, it's been the hardest time of my life. Ive came across with all these mixed emotions I've never had before, too scared to out my front door, panicking when I'm in public, thinking Is all this worth living for? What did I do to deserve this?.. But then I look at my brothers and sisters, and think to myself I'm living for them, I'm here to protect them, watch them grow up and be there. I'm only 20 years old, and I've never felt so lonely and lost in all my life, confused and hurt. But I will get there and so will everyone that's been through bad experiences! Don't give up, become the person you want to be and don't let other peoples nasty disgusting decisions ruin your life! Were strong people, if we can get through this then we can get through anything.