I'm courtney i'm 18 years old now I was raped and abused by both my mothers ex partners and a ex partner of mine. It's not been easy for me to get past it it still haunts me now i can't cope with day to day changes with panic, I'm still broken from it. yes we all say ''we're not broken'' i am i'm still recovering from the abuse i suffered at the hand of a man i loved and someone i wanted to see as my dad. (My dad isn't around) i'm still trying to get over my nightmares (YES i'm the downer to the party) i've moved on to a point im enagaged to be married next year. thats one good thing. either way i'm still dealing with that happened to me and i don't know how to make the fear i have go away..